I am really happy and touched, but not because it's my birthday,  but because the love that was brought to me on my birthday!

1) S gave me a very pleasant surprise, really sweet of him. :)
2) Bf cares. thank you for ensuring I had at least a cake to go w for my birthday, even though u arent here w me. :)
3) Lydia remembered me! I miss u! ;D
4) My dear babes and Jake, haha.. totally love to meet up w u all :)
5) My bro finally decided to be nice! ;p
6) My parents 'hip-ly' sms me wishes ;)

And all who bothered to wish me! :)

so birthday, is not about presents.. but love that emanates from people who cares that surrounds u :)

This is my consolation:

"in the end its these small things that you remember..little imperfections that make them perfect..for you"


Are we growing apart already?
I feel like the gap's widening....

Happy Birthday Pat Pat 3hrs ago ;D

Bf is working at the IT show, so he missed 2 days of classes. Lots to catch up. Feel kind of lonely without him. But I'm glad I have the guys to accompany me. KTV date with Lao Da and Tay tmr! So many things, too little time la. Singing is a mode of destress-ing!

I have been having weird dreams almost every night recently. The dreams seemed to have been pieced up from the daily happenings in my life. So when each different detail mix and match with another they form a dream, familiar yet a little far fetched! They are not really nightmares that wake me up in the middle of the night feeling scared out of my wits, but weird in the sense that they sometimes leave me thinking 'are they my dreams or did they really happen?'. Sometimes, they get quite ridiculous!
Talking about ridiculous, I ever dreamt of Fong killing Chua, while I had to pretend I didn't know cos Fong threatened to kill me too! Muderous dream. duh! lol

Totally loves 一切完美2. Loves Alex Tan and Emily! SO adorable! Loves 石欣卉's song..
My must watch drama every night 10pm! yay, makes me happy ;)

你没想像中爱我
你小心翼翼 牵我手
其实是担忧 藏不住我
自尊也投降 活在她之下
我 好傻

你字字句句说 你不爱她
那又是什么 让你害怕
我疑惑但是原谅 因为你留下
我 好傻

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来 你没想像中那么爱我
我不懂该拿什么安慰我的难受
你的存在 让我更寂寞

你寸步不离 像天使的她
挥霍我的爱 从不放心上
我有一丝无奈 也有一些明白
该 放开

不是我不说就不在意空等候
原来 你没想像中那么爱我
我不能再从你的怀抱感觉到什么
不爱我别再说 假装爱那是撒盐在伤口

啊~~ 谁说我不在意空等候
原来 你从来都没深刻爱我
我才懂不是我不心痛
其实是心没了感受

I Love emo songs, so here's another..
But they don't reflect my current mood k, I'm happy ;)

你不愛我

習慣被拒絕的人會先拒絕　這一次至少是我先說離別
有一些痛楚看不見淚水　有一種防衛叫做我無所謂

要讓你快樂原是我的心願　可是你從不在意我的傷悲
丟給我一些喜悅的碎屑　卻帶走我一切

你不愛我　是我捨不得　是我不配　為你再狼狽
你不愛我　你真的不愛我　盡力而為我拼命給也是浪費
你不愛我　是我捨不得　是我不配　和命運作對
你不愛我　你真的不愛我　一直以為我是後衛　原來只是那後備

*Please select me for internship, assign me a good one and let me not screw up!
 

Three years it has been. I'm still doubting whether I am slowly morphing into a Real Estate professional. I seriously have no qualms admitting that I am still almost as empty as when I entered into Uni. Anyway, my CV is a clean sheet. haha, and clean is no good. As I grow, I think my brain stops functioning as well as it used to (that is if it had ever been good).

Anyways, been slacking too much! so much to catch up. Getting quite frustrated w rm tutorial! Spss is easy but interpretation is not! grr. FL sucks too! I totally have no confidence and motivation this semester. Flop!
Dissertation is another idiot that frustrates me. Writing on a topic I'm not really interested in, not that I have anything in mind though. Ah, I just don't want to do dissertation la! and who the hell is my supervisor lor! duh!
Grumbling rumbling.. so that I feel better.

My bf says I'm delusional! I'm just imaginative and a little teeny weeny bit more emotional than others! It's a genetic trait (I believe). I cry extremely easily since young. I'm not weak, just not very good at controlling my tear glands. Actually, most of the time when I cry, I'm not crying, it's just 'tearing'(I believe too). Anyway, I hate the fact that I tear easily k. It's like a show of weakness.
And, I especially dislike myself crying in front of bf!

Suspect X is nice! Witty ;)

有很多东西并不是刻意去忘记， 而是自然的随着时间慢慢的遗忘。
自己有时候也非常惊讶。。 曾经以为将来会是永恒，是生命中最甜蜜的回忆，现在却无法清晰的记起。
曾经是多么强烈的感觉现在已平淡不过。
心理害怕现在所拥有的，所感受的，也会随着光阴漫漫的消逝。

first day of work! quite brainless. my legs are aching though & the uniform is super obiang!
but at least still can chat chat laugh laugh. ;)

i wanna go JB! still trying to cyco my parents cos they dont allow!!! sians ;(
i want to watch cape no7!
i want to watch twilight!
i want to visit underwater World, musical fountain & take luge ride!
i want to club, drink & laugh like crazy!
i want to eat katong laksa, popeye, ma la huo guo, sambal stingray sotong & lala!
i want to jog & swim!
i want to lose another Kg!
i want to shop!
i want to sing sing sing!

i dont want to pack my wardrobe & cupboard!!!
But i Have to do it! soon! >.<

尊严， 矜持全无。

I'm Fucking stupid.
I get it. It took me 1year and 7mths.
I should wake up now
Tears will dry one day no matter how long it takes
And then I will see my rainbow again ;)

Starting to feel alil jittery about next Tuesday cos Mummy keeps telling me how worried she is and will be..
hais, it's nothing much really*. i hope so. ;)

( For myself. )